Today at 3pm I'll speak with my Coach about my planned marathon next week. I think there is a really good chance she'll tell me to pull myself from the event. Over the past couple weeks I have felt grossly unprepared to run 26.2 miles. Sure I had a great 1/2 marathon time of 1:50, an 8:23 mile pace but on all my runs sometime between 1 and 1/2 and 2 hours my body breaks down and my legs seize up. At 5'8 and 185 lbs I am not a long distance runner and I am not an endurance athlete - as a very wise friend once told me "you can't make a bulldog into a poodle." So I feel unpreparred not because I'm under trained - I've done everything prescribed to me, I fell unpreparred because I do not beleive my body is ready to take the pounding of a marathon.
I know in my heart by July 20th I'll be able to conquer the Ironman course in Lake Placid that is the goal, running the Shamrock Marathon is not. I need to be mature enough to understand that not running that marathon may be more beneficial than running the marathon - that the pain, cramps and body fatigue I will experience from that race could have serious negative effects to my training, not to mention my blood sugars and body.
My family and I must also consider the daily struggle my dog is going through. We can neither get too high nor too low as he experiences the ups and downs associated with chemo therapy. But it's tough not to stay positive and do everything you can to help out a guy that makes you this happy: